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Sunday, September 30, 2012

How Do I Quit Smoking Herbal Incense?

If you are reading this, you probably have a serious problem. Its not easy to admit. I know because I've been there. It took a couple months, lots of failures and losing everything but I finally was able to quit. I feel so much better now. Believe me. You can do it. I don't want to sound like some kind of motivational speaker because they used to piss me off. People always tried to help me and I hated it. Didn't think they knew what they were talking about. Now that I am sober, I am realizing I should have listen to them a long time ago.

I'm going to tell you a little about myself and my struggles with this addiction and maybe you will see similarities and finally realize this stuff is poisoning you. That's what it took for me.

My name is James and I'm 31. I live in Florida and have an amazing wife and 2 of the best kids on the planet. It's total BS that I forgot all of this until I lost almost everything. Luckily my wife believed in me and I found a program to help me deal with my addiction.

I used to work for a huge Telecom company here. I worked there for over 6 years and had moved all the way up to a manager. Life was awesome. I got married 4 years ago had a house, 2 cars and a bunch of friends. Every weekend everyone came to my house for BBQ and beers and usually watched UFC or something. Our kids played together and we chatted and had a great time. Then things started to change.

I didn't realize it at the time but I was slowly distancing myself from my family and friends because of the crap called herbal incense or synthetic marijuana.

I used to smoke weed every day and all day. It was never a problem because my wife smoked, my friends smoked and I could function normally. I was very successful even though I was what you would call a "Functioning Pot-Head". My problems started when I had to quit smoking weed because I got into a accident at work, failed a drug test and was put on probation. I didn't want to lose my job but I also didn't want to stop getting high. One day, about 2 years ago, I was getting some beer at the local store and discovered something called "Mr. Nice Guy" herbal incense. I thought, "Holy crap, I can still get high! Legally".

The first time I smoked it, I fell in love. I only had to smoke a bowl and I was high as hell. I had energy. I could stay awake all night. I was super social and, best of all, I didn't have to risk my job every time I smoked. It was easy to get. I could just stop at the store, pick some up and even drive around smoking without any fear of the law. Little did I know, the chemicals were screwing up my brain!!

In the beginning, I bought 1 gram for $15 and it would last all day. At the end, I was spending around $80 a day on the crap and if I didn't have the money I would find some way to get it. Whether it was selling my stuff, my wife's stuff or even my mother-in-laws things. Golf clubs, jewelry, computers, my kids video games. Whatever I could sell to get more incense. I didn't care who I hurt. Until I got high. Once I got high, I would realize that I was acting like a crackhead and feel super horrible. But, those feelings only lasted so long. When I ran out of incense, I would go to sleep so I didn't crave smoking. The next day when I woke up, usually 6am, it's all I thought about. I would ask my wife for money. If she said no, I would get so mad she had to give it to me just so I wouldn't threaten divorce. If she really didn't have any money to give me, I would find something to sell or pawn.

The reason I didn't have money is because I spent all my savings and had no money coming in because I quit my awesome career. At the time, I told myself, friends and my family I was quitting my job because I wanted to start my own business. In hindsight, I really just wanted to be able to smoke incense all day and didn't want to deal with my responsibilities. I put about 50% effort into my business, which failed in only a few months. I decided I didn't want to hear my wife telling me to get a regular job so I used the rest of my 401K money to buy a large quantity of incense with plans to be a wholesaler. Really, I just wanted to be able to smoke for free. Gradually, my wife and I grew apart from all of the money issues and I moved out. I was staying with friends, hotels or in my truck. I got my truck repossessed because I used my car payment money on hotels and to buy another large quantity of incense because I smoked all of the stuff I was supposed to sell. I was homeless, car less and had no money. I officially hit rock bottom.

I walked to the library and looked up "How to quit smoking herbal incense" on the internet and found a blog just like this one. That day was the beginning of the rest of my life. I started reading all these stories from other people experiencing the same exact things. I felt like I was reading my story, written by complete strangers. You might be feeling the same way right now. I hope you are. This lady named Karen spilled her guts on this post and it brought me to tears. I'm 6'1" 225 lbs and I was crying like a baby. I'm not an emotional person but her post really hit home. That day I decided I was going to quit that poison called "Legal Weed".

So my mission is to help anyone I can quit that crap. And deter anybody who hasn't smoked it from even starting. IT WILL RUIN YOUR LIFE. I am proof. But I am also proof that you can quit and be back to normal. It is not easy, but with some support, you can do it. I promise.

I thought I could do it by myself, but unfortunately, I couldn't. I relapsed quite a few times. Even though I had moral support from my family but I just couldn't stay away from it. I started looking for a program to help me with synthetic marijuana. There isn't anything specifically for synthetics THC but I found a couple for quitting real weed. I borrowed $50 from a close friend and bought this quit smoking marijuana guide. This was the best $50 I have ever spent. It taught me everything I needed to know about the addiction I had to the Synthetic THC because it effects the brain in the same way. Plus, it gave me the knowledge I needed to get through the withdrawal I was experiencing. Without the program, I felt like hell when I didn't smoke and after a few days I would be right back at the store. I'd sleep all day and still be craving it. Once I found the program and started using it, I was feeling better within a day or 2 and have been incense free for over 6 months. I'm never going to touch it again either. Now that its out of my system, I am so scared of going back to the way I was living before. I'm also so embarrassed by how my wife looked at me that I can never do it again.

Now I'm 100% drug free and that includes real weed! I started a new job a few months ago at another telecom company and I am loving life! They say everything happens for a reason. I guess this has made me stronger as a person but I wish I would have never touched that crap. It's the devil. Do yourself a favor and quit today!! For you, for your family. For anyone or anything that is important to you.

Take the first step by going to this awesome addiction support website. There is tons of info and tools you can use to quit this stuff. You might be able to find a program like I used. Which is the only reason I am able to sit here writing this, Incense Free and and have the ability to help other people just like me get off that horrible poison!

I don't want to sound like one of those hated motivational speakers but I know I'm going to :)

"Only you can decide to change your life. But, you don't have to do it alone"